Six months ago I moved to Louisville from the area I had called home for 30 years.
In this time my small family and I have lived in a tiny temporary house, lost a house due to appraisal issues, got an amazing new house, moved in, and had a baby. And that's not including all the day-to-day happenings, holidays, and guests. (Daily life, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and 9 guests).
Six months ago I was sobbing driving here. I was miserable. This change was so much harder than I ever imagined it could be.
I am happy to say that much has gotten better. Having our daughter filled a hole in our family none of us knew was even there. She is amazing. I LOVE my new neighborhood. We are living in my dream home in an idyllic spot. Being away from certain things is good. I am okay with not moving back (six months ago I would have been clawing at the chance to move "home"). My career? Well, that is kinda on hold while I take a year that is being filled with baby snuggles, sleepless nights, and many, many dirty diapers. But I don't mind.
I am sad to report that aspects have gotten worse. Mostly it's an internal struggle. Having my daughter has taken a toll on my body and mind. I am struggling to find myself amidst all the upheaval. For I am the one who has had to change the most. Chris is working for the same company, doing the same thing he has done for ten years. Claire has school, which is routine for her. I have my new place as stay-at-home-mom. But only temporarily. Future uncertainty looms for me. And I am lost. A separate post is in order to discuss my journey.
Overall, I don't regret making the decision to turn our lives upside down and move here. This has been such a valuable learning experience (for me at least). Maybe I will expand on that another time...
Anyway, this is just a quick hello to say that we are okay. :)
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